In the last 17 years of my spiritual pursuit, I openly shared my learning journey on social media. It was with a hope that my transparency would instigate some of you to think, and to ask questions about why we choose to be on earth at this epic time of human evolution.
At least that’s how I started my inner quest in 2008.
For example, I was often looking outside to seek a spiritual teacher, or attended an inspiration workshop, or found an insightful messenger to enlighten my questions about this world. I forget that by pursuing outwardly, I will not have the true perception of my existence and my soul purpose on earth. Since everyone has their individual reality and soul calling to choose to experience at this timeline.
I began to explore this matrix phenomenon, as well as doing an investigation, seeking answers, and searching my heart. After many months of silence, meditation, and reflection, I came to comprehend that it is necessary for me to continue on this inward journey and to obtain inner peace. Because through pursuing internally, I found many answers lie within my soul.
Then what is the objective of the inner quest? My self-realization that the purpose is to know thyself, patiently unlearning obsolete routines and relearning the wisdom of the ancients, constantly questioning our automatic reactive thinking patterns, observing without clinging to meaningless identity, dismantling habitual reactions that constrain emotions, discontinuing judgmental thinking, and decoding conditioned programming. Similarly, consistently activate our intuition, explore our spiritual world, search for deeper insight in our heart, and uncover our internal joy and inner peace, and self-love.
In addition, through persistent surrender, contemplation of thought, reflection of emotion, and silent meditation, our inner quest shall guide us to discover our soul mission. Likewise, anchoring our soul choice with love, not from desperation, it’s from empowerment and soul knowing, which enables us to uncover our soul contract. Certainly, some find their soul calling when they are young, some uncover it through exploration of life, and some reveal it through a challenging event. Further, as we grow and have different life experiences, our soul mission shall change to a grander possibility.
My soul calling came through dreams and meditation, and visions. Years ago, I was given a message that called me to be a content creator. Then another dream brought me awareness, which illustrated to me what my soul longed to experience. But I was afraid that my articulation was not good enough to express my heart. During one of the silent meditation sessions, I saw a vision of people showing me appreciation on a stage. Still, I was not certain where to begin to take action and what message to impact others’ journeys. At last, I was pondering this question of: “Who am I to be a digital content creator?”
In January of 2024, during a 5-hour silent meditation, my Ascended spiritual teacher spoke to me through stillness, “Time to share your journey.” I thought I was openly sharing my story, experiences, learning lessons, self-realizations and mindfulness living with social media for the last 16 years. I had honored my soul’s calling as a writer.
Surprisingly, my soul had bigger aspirations, a desire to be a storyteller, an elevated conscious narrative, and an instrument of upliftment messenger through a new platform. Most importantly, my soul objective is to share discoveries, share experiences, share discussions, and share my soul. As well as to share what is more relevant for others to raise awareness, what realization is more resonant, and support others’ mind expansion. Likewise, how can I utilize my writing, touch other people’s hearts, and make a substantial impact on their transformation journey?
Indeed, I had received 7 messages regarding my soul contract, yet I was too worried and too terrified to follow my soul calling. I was a spiritual junkie and wondering outwardly to obtain wisdom, some time I forget to pay attention to listen my inner source and pursue my soul’s desire.
So, my higher self saw I was not acting upon inner guidance, then orchestrated some outrageous circumstances to push me out of my comfort zone in the last year. Although that was a dark night of the soul. I admit that I was playing small, I was playing safe, and I was frightened that I was not fully equipped to be a messenger on the world stage.
What could I share to inspire other people’s journey? What was it that I needed to do to touch other people’s hearts? What can I contribute to humanity? At the same time, I eagerly examine these questions from the perspective of self-awakening: What fundamental links are missing in elevating human consciousness? What study and investigation can I do to provide ancient wisdom to help individuals in dissolving suffering? How can I promote effective methods and decode the key program to assist others in dismantling this fraudulent matrix?
Be the Best Version of me!
Ultimately, I fulfilled my duty to create a fully functional website, and to be a content creator to contribute my thoughts, my unlearning journey, my experiment of discovery, and my soulful research insights. But also, my mistake in learning, my frustration in misinformation, my profound challenge in overcoming difficulty, and my complete surrender in silence. Absolutely, I am learning to trust my soul calling and my epic creation of the universe.
Equally, I am freely to share my writing through heart and soul, not because I was interested in being an influencer, or aimed to persuade other people to jump ship onto a spiritual journey, nor enjoyed regurgitating savior propaganda. Since I know we are the ones who truly save ourselves. I intend to use my investigation of fact, my relearning experience, my knowledge of truth, my self-realization of inner quest, and wisdom for how to reprogram our human supercomputer to facilitate other people who are willingly elevating their consciousness, doing their inner work, also enthusiastically to be a transformer in this new earth.
Truly, I realized that when God came knocking on my door, I was now ready to answer the call. Maybe if I had done so in the first message, all those extreme events could have been avoided. Then again, those encounters may reveal an exchange to support my soul development. Positively, I am willing to use this rock bottom as my stepping stone to rebuild a new life in 2025. I strongly believe everything is a learning experience, and when I know better, I do better.
Undeniably, the road that I walked may have been full of challenges, setbacks, disappointments, hardships, and some suffering. But with each turn in my adventure, I not only survived, but I also blossomed, and I thrived from all these so-called adversities. Besides, by the Universe’s grace, every obstacle became a miracle in my learning journey.
❣️ Now I fulfill the calling of my soul ❣️ Perseverance in telling life with pen ❣️
💫 My transformational journey shared in Travelling Inwards book 💫
” Trust yourself. Think for yourself. Act for yourself. Speak for yourself. Be yourself. Imitation is suicide.” ~ Marva Collins
On this note, I choose to be silent on social media and have technology fasting, I am utilizing this time to go Inward and Soul-searching.
🐇 May I invite you to continue to walk with me on this spiritual quest 🐇
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