I was at the Vipassana meditation center doing 30 days silent retreat
One day, during my silent meditation class, as I was focused on my breath, I sensed my heartbeat rising faster and faster, it felt like a flower blossoming movement in the heart area. I was concerned for a moment, then attempted not to pay much attention to it and continued to concentrate on my meditation. Later, I detected a very heavy and strong sensation on top of my head, almost like something knocking my brain. I thought that it was very unusual. Then I shifted my wandering mind to focus on my breath, aware of the air in and out of my nose.
After that, something else caught my attention, my ear was ringing, and I felt a high-pitched tone sound, thus I could no longer ignore this bizarre situation. I stopped the meditation and curiously questioned my higher self, what is happening? Extensive silence, I know my wonder mind has interrupted my meditation course .…..
The next day, after lunch, I was hiking in the wilderness behind the meditation center, it was a cold winter month, no one around me. I was walking around the woods and pondering my spiritual quest.
Suddenly, at this long walk in the forests, I perceived a man´s soft voice, followed by a little girl’s joyful giggling … I was in shock at first, then I laughed at myself, such absurd phenomena have been happening one after another these days. Am I in delusion or is something wrong with my brain? There is no one around in this wilderness!
While I was examining my insanity, I comprehended a distinct expression from a man:
“You are an apple in my eyes!” then that little girl delightful chuckled and heartily laughter rebounded around the forests.
In that indescribable moment, tears streamed out of my eyes uncontrollably, my soul knew that the little girl was me, and that man was my father. Unbelievably, I was elevated to another time and space, I revisited my childhood, and I was reconnected with my beloved father.
In that eternity moment, I was in complete astonishment, I was speechless, I was mounted in stillness, and cannot fathom this phenomenon …
Eventually, I came back to my awareness, to grasp what transpired, to comprehend what is the message for me to receive. Incredibly, I realized this profound incident was to help me to heal my childhood wound.
Well, I was raised in a dysfunctional family, and since my father did not express his affection toward me during my growing up, I garnered a belief that he did not love me. As a result, I mistakenly created a miserable story that I was unlovable, I was unworthy, and I was an unhappy person for a long time…
Today, my beloved father wanted me to experience a different reality. Ultimately, in this ecstatic state, I felt true love; I started revaluing my relationship with my dear father.
Although my beloved father never verbalized his love for me. Nevertheless, I knew he did his best to take care of my well-being. Although our family was living in extreme poverty condition, yet, he did save every penny to buy me things for schooling. Although he was not a perfect father, yet, I recognize he did what he thought was ideal to teach me. Although he did not take care of me the way I anticipated from him, yet, he did put a roof over my head and food to fill up my stomach. Although, he was an alcoholic and unconsciously abused his own children, yet, I knew my father deep down was tender-hearted.
Especially today, I got an incredible insight into my soul contract, in this lifetime, is to learn unconditional love, this reason I had a soul agreement with my father when I chose to reincarnate on earth. Hence, I realized that all circumstances with my father were meant to serve my higher good, as well as to propel me to be more compassionate toward others and share unconditional love. With this awareness, I chose to forgive my father´s actions and also to release all the drama and trauma that was holding me hostage. After years of inner work, I confidently know that I had transmuted my karma with my beloved father…
Miraculously, 8 years of my father´s passing away, he noticed my struggle for a breakthrough, so, he orchestrated this surprise and came through the new timeline to uplift my spirit. In addition to articulating to me his unspoken love, he has bestowed me the strength to triumph over this challenging time.
I am earnestly grateful for this unique message, this healing impact, and this transformational energy. With those blessings, I imprinted this precious love into my heart, and rejoice for knowing that I have healed the unworthiness´s wound.
I am sharing this incident; it is intended to invite you to revisit your childhood encounter, reassess your growing pain, revalue your family dynamic relationship, and reconsider what is the true belief that serves your higher good. Equally, to review uplifting memories and rewrite some of your ¨misfortune¨ stories to empower your soul. Since blame, anger, unforgiveness, frustration, and bitterness emotion is not the foundation energy to enrich our transformational journey. ❤️